PART 1: ACCEPTANCE
I begin writing this knowing full well that I am not okay. And in doing so, I feel I have taken a huge step in the right direction in regard to dealing with my mental health. Mental Health is a word that does get tossed around rather a lot in this day and age, and rightly so. The awareness created around mental health and the the acceptance of the idea that it’s okay to not be okay is what have inevitably lead me into start writing about such an issue.
For a long time now, I’ve felt as though I’m stuck in an endless cycle, unable to really make a meaningful change or step in the desired direction. My issue is that I did not have the patience, I wanted a change to happen over night. So when I woke up the next day not having seen any changes, I allowed my self to feel restless and frustrated at my situation.
The worst thing about feeling this way is, without even realising you often take it out on those around you. Finding every possible reason to blame someone other than yourself. This toxic behaviour has many downfalls, not only does it hold you back from making the right changes, it shuts out those around with the genuine intention to help. I do understand that this is all me speaking from my own personal experience and the dynamic of another persons battle with Mental Health can be completely different.
However, from reflection on my own thinking I’ve understood that the easiest and most dangerous thing can be becoming comfortable in the state that you want to get out of. By this, I’m basically referring to the lack of motivation to carry out positive actions being replaced by meaningless procrastination. Another important thing I that for me, feeling low comes in intense phases.
This is only the beginning of a journey that I have begun, one in which I hope to know myself better. I feel there are many people who may be anxious to embark on this journey. For those, I say that you must be brave and question yourself. Because I guarantee the answers will surprise you and empower you. Empowerment is contagious and is the reason I chose to share this. Let the answers continue to surprise you! Until next time…